|When we were featured in the AJC about how we moved to ATL after Hurricane Katrina|
Thanks Ernie Suggs
I was suppose to submit this to my cousin Greg for a feature on a blog but couldn't get the words out then. I had so much anxiety to deal with when I returned from Florida after being with Sean B that I just needed to rest. I slept but still had nightmares about how we were once homeless and were ignored during one of the most catastrophic events near the Gulf of Mexico. One thing about me I do not like is being ignored and dealing with how the state of Mississippi was ignored during Hurricane Katrina. It hurt and still does. We had some of the same issues many dealt with in New Orleans and I try really hard not to be bitter or angry about it.
Why do people dislike the state of Mississippi so much? It isn't fair to ignore their citizens. I will never forget what happened on the day that #HurricaneKatrina hit and the months afterwards. I was set to move back to Atlanta around August 2005 but this changed everything. I ended up homeless and was able to find shelter with up to six other families right after giving birth to Sean B in June 2005. Imagine this: A new mother, failed engagement, dreams on mute, single, working a part-time job making less than $300 a month and trying to figure out how in the world I was going to provide for my son and I.
#HurricaneKatrina brings up so many negative nightmares and positive moments where I say, "I made it through!" The nightmares come when I feel like I am ignored. The nightmares come when I feel like I am not in control of what is going on in my life. So here comes ANXIETY! Living with my Bipolar disorder I am able to work through episodes and mood swings holistically & naturally now, but when the remembrance of this moment in my life comes back up I want to retreat from all things human and be left alone.
There are still many in the state of Mississippi dealing with lack of funding and proper resources to get back to their homes and a normal way of life for them. Many homes were flooded out and many people had to move in order to create a better quality of life. I wasn't able to leave Mississippi until May 2007 and I haven't looked back. I went back to school and I worked 3 jobs so that I would not see my son & I in a situation like that every again even if it is beyond my control. This gave me a sense of who I am and the mother I wanted to be. So many things have been birthed because of this horrible event, but I am finally able to say more than just, "Forget Hurricane Katrina," when I am asked about it. I am sure I will write in depth one day what went on for us and the McGilberry family in Ellisville, Mississippi who helped us during this time.
There are just some things you aren't meant to forget because you are able to see progress in your life and reflect on how to stay focused on where you are headed. God truly continues to cover me with his grace & favor and I am forever grateful for that. I will continue to make it through and I will continue to share my voice & testimony.