When I say that I have had 3 nervous breakdowns & 2 panic attacks (within a WEEK's time) ... I AM SAYING THAT I AM LOSING IT! *Contraction* The stress of my FINAL exams and my everyday life have really taken a toll on me. I found myself asking God last night, "Why me?", and usually I can reply in his defense, "Why not you DAWN?"
But not last night. *Contraction* I have physically & mentally cried too many tears over the various emotions I have experienced over the past three weeks. But it's not over. Everything that I have worked hard for will be recognized on May 7th and I still have a ways to go. So much more to do and so much more to accomplish. *Contraction*
I shouldn't complain but I need to release it all. I can't see beyond my feet because my belly is taking up air space. I won't deny God his ability to work in my life because I know better. It is alright to admit that you are not SUPER WOMAN, but you can work wonders through your labor pains. *Contraction* I am mentally suffering but I can physically say that I AM STILL STANDING.... I am still here. Why? Because God is not through with me yet.... I've got more labor pains to endure.