Friday, January 14, 2011

Loving MySELF

Every time I pass a mirror I smile and say, "God you brought me this far". Once upon a time I could not stand looking at myself. Yeah I'm talking about me! Growing up I did pageants, oratorical contests, and I always gained attention for my accomplishments. I went through a phase in jr. high where I did not want to be the smart, skinny girl so I just closed my mouth. High school was the WORST for me. I was sexually-active and I was able to talk to my grandmother about the million things I was giong through. No one prepared me for what I went through when I was diagnosed with Bipolar and when I experienced Viral Menegitis for the first time. Those were the two most dramatic times in my life because it was assumed that I had AIDS or an STD for me to be so sick and out of school during that time. This lowered my self-esteem even more because I didn't know how to fight back. My senior year was when I was hit the hardest. Destined to surpass my classmates I was voted out of every club, organization, kept from being Prom Queen, and a part of our Homecoming court. My soul cried inside when I would wake up and go to school while being bullied about my lifestyle and how I became gravely ill my sophmore and junior year. This background of pain prepared me for the things I would face in College and my unplanned career path. As a model I am supposed to be PERFECT! Well I am not. I do not mind what people think of when they look at me because I was able to fall back in love with myself and appreciate my many talents. People ask me, "Why are you always so Positive?" I reply sometimes, "You don't know what Ive been through!" Learn to love yourself because when you don't it shows through your actions and your negativity. God thank you for not giving up on me!

8 comments:

  1. Amen and thanks for sharing. The photo here is GORGEOUS!

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  2. Thanks for reading and following the blog. Photographer Laretta Houston took the picture. Phenomenal

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  3. You are a strong woman destined for great things I knew that when we first met and connected....ur friend rayshawn

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  4. Thank you so much! I appreciate that Rayshawn

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  5. I really appreciate your honesty! Many people look at a diagnosis (whether mental or physical) as a death sentence. I look at them as enlightenment. At least there is identification of the issue and you can work on it. How many people walk around wondering "what's wrong with me?" Thanks for taking something that most would assume to be negative and making it positive!

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  6. This is beautiful Dawn. You're such a genuine person with a good heart. I thank God for using you as a blessing to everyone you come across.

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  7. Thanks so much! I did not expect this type of response but I do appreciate it!

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  8. It takes a special kind of person to share your story with the world and not be concerned with the criticism of outsiders. Models are looked at as being perfect and unflawed, however, we all have our trials & tribulations & your story should open the eyes of many...Thank you for sharing :)

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