Friday, January 14, 2011
Every time I pass a mirror I smile and say, "God you brought me this far". Once upon a time I could not stand looking at myself. Yeah I'm talking about me! Growing up I did pageants, oratorical contests, and I always gained attention for my accomplishments. I went through a phase in jr. high where I did not want to be the smart, skinny girl so I just closed my mouth. High school was the WORST for me. I was sexually-active and I was able to talk to my grandmother about the million things I was giong through. No one prepared me for what I went through when I was diagnosed with Bipolar and when I experienced Viral Menegitis for the first time. Those were the two most dramatic times in my life because it was assumed that I had AIDS or an STD for me to be so sick and out of school during that time. This lowered my self-esteem even more because I didn't know how to fight back. My senior year was when I was hit the hardest. Destined to surpass my classmates I was voted out of every club, organization, kept from being Prom Queen, and a part of our Homecoming court. My soul cried inside when I would wake up and go to school while being bullied about my lifestyle and how I became gravely ill my sophmore and junior year. This background of pain prepared me for the things I would face in College and my unplanned career path. As a model I am supposed to be PERFECT! Well I am not. I do not mind what people think of when they look at me because I was able to fall back in love with myself and appreciate my many talents. People ask me, "Why are you always so Positive?" I reply sometimes, "You don't know what Ive been through!" Learn to love yourself because when you don't it shows through your actions and your negativity. God thank you for not giving up on me!
Posted by Dawn Montgomery at 9:55 PM